:)

hoho. i feel happy.

just spend the past hour trying to mug chem :O

yes, me. mug chem :O :O :O

trying to summarize org chem.

it's kinda shitty cause everything, EVERYTHING is linked.

like really. extensively.

buttttttt. i feel good mugging :)

hoho and GLEE IS NICE.

take 5!

hahahaha. take 5 was kinda dry =/ but i played the rodeo thing! quite fun (Y) got an abrasion though =[ anywayyyyy. school's out! at least, until wednesday :) i have third lang later though :(

rawrrrrr. yay.

shopping!

hahaha shopping is fun :)

but tiring

though it was only 2 hours.

but still fun.

bought 1 pair of black berms,

1 pair of long pants

1 long sleeve shirt

1 t shirt :)

hahahahaha.

carls jr for lunch (Y)

the girls in my life

okay. for one, the title sounds quite weird.

however.

this post is long overdue.

in this post i will include stories of how i met them, how we became good friends, and sadly, how we drifted.

maybe let's start wayyyy back.

when i was a little kid.

the first name that came to my mind was Claudia.

well of course, i met her in church, wayyyy back when we were little toddlers.

of course, i really enjoyed her company due to her bubbly attitude.

well, in some sense we were never really close friends, for some reason.

while not close, we were friends for a long time and that attributed something.

unfortunately, with conflicting circumstances, we don't really talk much nowadays.

of course, i would still take every chance to chitchat and catch up, and it really is nice to reminiscence about the old days, when we were little kids and nothing really mattered to us. about the exciting and colourful lives in church. from sunday school childrens' corner and even chinese sunday school! those were awesome times that i pray i would never forget. even now some things slip my mind and i don't want to lose those memories.

the next name that comes to my mind is Robyn.

well, for some reason, i only started talking to her in, i think, sec 3. of course, we were all church friends and we were acquaintances. I think it was after ABC or something when i really started talking to her. For some reason, there are always weird times when i see a person and decide that i should get to know that person. this was the case with Robyn. Slowly, we became closer, shared problems, thoughts and the like. This was also memories that i treasure dearly. this kept on until the BYMET trip to cambodia, which really made a difference. i will always remember the times we shared as that BYMET group. A priceless memory would be that of sitting under the vast expanse of the dark sky above, appreciating the wonder of God's creation. Appreciating how small and yet loved by God we were. The stars were nothing short of breathtaking. Kudos to weihong again, for the awesome pictures which he managed to take, helping us forever keep those memories close to our hearts. however, our friendship sorta reached a stalemate and we kinda started drifting. we both had different interests, different motivations and we didn't progress any further. However, i will always remember the times shared together in the various camps, trips and whatnot. while we are not as close as before, i will always remember the joyful, mischievous character that never failed to provide delight :)

the next name is Althea. well. we actually do go a long way back but i never did talk to her. it was only until after ABC in 07 i think. For some reason, we started talking and chatting. It's quite funny really, how we did started talking. I still remembered how we called each other and how the names changed. from friend-i-talk-to-when-i'm-bored to good-friend-i-talk-to-when-i'm-bored-and-feeling-sad. slowly it progressed to best friends and then our pet names G(azelle) and D(oe). The origins of which are preferably kept out of this. well. i talked to her cause she was a very interesting girl. she had many unique interests as well as opinions. she also had a flair for writing which was something i admired, even though she was a full 2 years younger. i wanted to be a brother to her, a guide. i wanted to listen to her problems, to help her in any way i could. still, she was a very good friend, listening to my troubles and supporting me too. i will never forget her crazy highs and extreme moodswings. Of course, as time passes, we all change, some subtly, some maybe a little more. we are still on very good terms, i guesss, but we don't talk as much as we used to. i guess i can say she's occupied so all i can do is wish her happiness. althea, you too, made a difference in my life. i wish you all the best with all your endeavours, especially with your O lvls this year. jiayou! and thank you.

the next name that comes to my mind is rachel. now this one, is an interesting character. well, once again, i met her in church, way back. her father's another plane enthusiast, like my dad! well. i only started talking to her maybe in sec3/4 too. I guess we were never really exactly close. She's a difficult one to get close to. she is still very guarded but i do appreciate her perpetual joyful face which brings delight to everyone around her. but for some reason, i see more than beyond that farce. this is more the reason why i started talking to her. i didn't believe that she was so simple, so carefree. slowly, i found out more, but am still standing on shaky ground. she has proven to be a delightful friend, though our conversations, more often that not, die out at both of us just saying 'haha' and not responding to the conversation. i wish she could open up more, but that should happen in time to come. while we may not have that many shared experiences, i appreciate the friendship that we have and will continue to try to nurture it in the coming years. cheers :)

the next name is natalie! well. we met in church, grew up together, have families which were quite close, having went on various trips together. our relationship only budded, however, in an ABC too. it was there that i decided to listen to her rants and from then on, our friendship blossomed. she made me her di and her my jie. no matter what circumstance i was in, she would always be there, to encourage, to give a helping word. without fail, she'd be the one to come to offer help, offer words and verses to pull my through my more horrible days. to jie, i will continue to appreciate and treasure the loving guidance you've provided me all these years. i will treasure the times we have spent together and i wish you all the best. the road ahead is still long and i hope that there will be many years ahead, that we will continue to encourage each other. thanks for all the love :)

the next few will be those that i knew from school. that i met, mostly through band.

the first name to mind is Kimberley. I doubt she would consider these feelings mutual or that she thinks highly of our friendship, but she is a very very interesting character. i first met her probably in sec 1 or 2. i remembered her, but she probably didn't remember me. through my weird means, i got her msn and we started talking during i think sec 4. we really did talk extensively and we did share our personal moments. in fact, before school started in j1, we really did talk a lot over msn. we talked of our visions, hopes, motivations and aspirations for the coming JC life and we got excited and sometimes moody about it. well, the reason why i liked talking to kimberley was because she was so entertaining. while she may have the mind and brains of any normal person, she had the golden heart of a child. she always struck me as so innocent and demure. because of this, i found her a real pleasure to talk to, amusing, most of the time. unfortunately, as time progressed, she got busy with school and all. after she quit band we didn't really talk much. we still do talk, occasionally, but only on rare occasion. nonetheless, to me, she is still esteemed as a once-upon-a-time good friend and i treasure whatever moments that we had together. jiayou for our last year in school!

the next name is weiqi. now, this one is a long story too. in fact, i dunno how i started talking to her. i'm not sure of the basis by which i started talking to her etiher. we just did start talking and we kinda caught on. at one point in time we really were quite good friends. sharing scandals, experiences were usually the hot topics of our discussion. i still remember when we first started band in j1, that was, i think, the peak of our friendship. it was quite funny actually. i complained, and she knew, that she looked dao. so like everytime i saw her i told her that she'd have to give a big wide smile! it was actually quite funny and amusing. we used to have quite some fun talking. but (ah the fateful word that turns everything aroudn) again, we drifted. i was quite sad actually, even jealous, maybe, that she was talking to other guys. i know, it's really selfish and childish but that's what i honestly felt. we slowly drifted, she made better friends and we kinda stopped talkling. of course, today we still meet regularly during band still talk, but things aren't the same as they used to be. oh well =/ it was fun while it lasted and i thank you too. cheers to our batch!

the second last name that i will be talking about is chloe. haha. another funny story behind why we talked. of course, i knew her face especially since sec 3, when she was SC for rgs. i remember her twinkle twinkle little star conducting which, it appears, is an rgs tradition (which is kinda weird, in my opinion). the impression i got of her then, was that she was some super duper strict person who was serious all the time. believe or not, i think i was a little scared of her. wellllllll. it acutally all began in a NBC (nightly batch convo) that we had some time in early j1. with my impression of her still fresh, she tore it apart by going high in the convo. this continued on for a long time. from there, i took an interest to talking to her and we slowly grew. we were kinda close, at some point in time. mid-late j1, i think. she was an interesting girl, who was mature in her own ways and i admired her. she was smart, mature and amusing, in her own little ways. like many others we had pet names. such include pet rambutan, pet strawberry, kloayee and so on and so forth. she was one of those that used like 'dear' and 'darling' very loosely so it was kinda entertaining. and omg. her twit. LOL. we also shared various opinions with regards to christianity and that was one of the bases for our friendship. however, towards late j1 i guess we kinda drifted a little too. we're still on good terms, yes, but we don't talk as much. i don't blame her, cause she's very clearly busy with all her academia and stuff. nevertheless, i treasure the times we had together and hope that our friendship will get better again, in future. cheers to you too :)

finally, the last name that i will mention today, is hillary. she's a girl i met in my trip to germany (one of the singaporeans i went with, duh. not a german). well. it all started when warren had to sit next to her in the flight to germany. he told me about her and her various achievements. and i was unduly impressed. from there, i wanted to get to know her, mostly because i admired what she could do. it never really worked out until one day in the bus when we started talking. haha she's one chatty one. we did talk for a bit and i found out a lot about her. the reason why i talked to her, was because she was everything i wanted to be and so much more! she is a little crazy but has reflective moments, she plays music (REALLY REALY WELL), she is a christian, she has flown planes before. like OMG. she's like, what ii've aspired to be. but i can't say i'm jealous of her. she has her own problems and views on life that i don't quite agree on, but we're still friends and we talk alot. i'm honoured to be one of her few friends but at least that's something. we really caught on and are still talking. i don't know how long this willl last, but i hope our friendship continues to grow.

all these friends mentioned were and still are important to me. to those that have drifted, i..

OOPS. OMG. I CAN"T BELIEVE I FORGOT TWO MORE NAMES.

yes yes yes.

these two were also AWESOME friends.

the first of the two is ASMIDAH.

she was one of six girls who were in the same class as me from p1 to p6. she really was an awesome friend. like awesome awesome awesome. it's quite funny, cause my brother and her sister are good friends too, but that's beside the point. with asmidah i've had some of my MOST enjoyable years in primary school. she is part the reason why i enjoyed primary school so much. i would always remember the friendly competition that we always had as well as the numerous, uncountable experiences that we shared. the most memorable experience, that both of us mutually treasure (i hope) is that of National day 2003. it was the NDP preview for all p5s to go for. i remember sitting with her in those concrete seats, watching the fireworks in the sky. to us, then, that was probably something that filled our little hearts and minds with insurmountable wonder. those moments were what made my primary school years so enriching and enjoyable. to asmidah, while we don't even see each other anymore, i have treasured all the times we spent together throughout our years in primary school. it's a pity that i didn't join u in NUSHS but i'm still happy for the years we had. i will continue to treasure our friendship and appreciate your presence and every memory that we've shared. BFF :)

the other name is denise.

ah. we go a loooooooong way back to. like asmidah, she's one of the six girls that was classmates with me through out primary school. we shared numerous experiences together too, as well as spent much time talking to each other. especially when p3/4 started and we became friends with sikai. that was when we really started doing things together and enjoying each other's company. you were one of my dearly treasured best friends and one of the few people whom i actually term best friends. unfortunately, we have drifted much but i'm glad you've found your own path in life. i wish you all the best too! holding on to the promises made when we were but toddlers, bff :)

all these were things that i wanted to say in my heart for a long time now. it feels so good to have released all that i wanted to say in this very very long post. i dunno if they'll ever read this post, but i'm glad i posted it. this is so much of an emotional release. maybe one thing i could include were the some lines from my batch song that i would like to dedicate to all the above mentioned.

when we look back, will we remember each moment of this year.

the days that mark our time in here threaten to disappear.

all that we have's the moment, to treasure while we can,

seizing every chance we're blessed with and live with no regrets.

thank you, dear friends (L)

edit: omg i pasted this into a word doc, and realized it was 2.6k words long D:

no wonder it took an hour.