Well, today, i had to meet up my band teacher in charge for a meeting.
a scolding, really.
i mean, throughout the whole time i was ridiculing her, in my mind, of course.
it's really quite funny, how she thinks of us as self-centred bloated rafflesians who never spared a thought about others and the people around ourselves.
all this time, she was starting off many sentences with "why should I.."
how she thought of us as inconsiderate people when all the time, she was going on about how she had to do so many many many things. how she had responsibilities to students as a teacher and whatnot.
believe it or not, she said something like "oh, it's easy to get an MC, for you guys. but for myself, the two teachers, we have responsibilities which are very different from yours." the way she said it. Like we took an MC because we were TIRED?
like wth. i told her i had a fever of 39.2 degrees and she said "the teachers ourselves weren't feeling too well either" YOU THINK I WANTED TO FALL SICK?
YOU THINK I WANTED TO SUFFER SPLITTING HEADACHES AND COUGHS?
LIKE WTH.
okay concerning the concert, i admit i had my mistakes.
it was bad on my part, to have forgotten about the percs.
i was as lost as anyone else, and that is my fault too.
i didn't relay the message that everyone was to go straight to the loading bay.
and what, she complains that she got home at 12+?
wth. i don't believe that. she left the school at 10:50, latest.
by car, excuse me. i do'nt think she would take that long to drive.
it's funny how the person shepraised was the one to tell me to tel everyone to go to the stage door. i was LOST. i didn't know what to do. i didn't know where everyone was. we should have at least shown some initiative and seen her? but where the heck was she. and what, i was supposed to leave those people who went by the stage door?
arghhhh. i'm just so frustrated!
hais. i never should have accepted this position.
i know i'm not the kind of admin person, some details just disappear on me.
i dunno, looking back, it was always the quiet dextrous person who did the admin,
and the bubbly jovial person being the support on which the BM could rely on.
i dunno, why did she have to intefere.
not that zy is bad or anything, but idk.
i wonder if things would be different if i weren't the BM.
maybe i'm not suited for this.
hai. but now, given the opportunity, i have to work more.
yes, i've been given responsibility, and i should behave as someone befitting of his responsibilities. i will live this through.
i will do my job.
